The way you get meaning into your life is to

“so many people walk around with a meaningless life.they seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. this is because they’re chasing the wrong things. the way you get meaning into your life is to-

  • devote yourself to loving others,
  • devote yourself to your community around you,
  • and to devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

~Morrie

The Butterfly Effect

Egg

The doors have opened,

From one circle to another,

Earth to sky is all mine,

My world just got bigger,

 Full of dreams and adventure,

Larva

The fun has begun,

Jumping from one rainbow to another,

Solving mysteries after puzzles

This life of adolescence,

Lost among counting stars,

Pupa

Betrayed by luck time goes on,

Hiding in shadows while the sun is up,

The wounds are deep It’s time to rest,

With new-found patience I curl up,

Strength will find me again

Butterfly

With new found colours I shed my old skin,

Tattered and mended I stand again,

World of wonders invites again,

Flying into the blue,

My journey starts again.

~Disappearance of a tall man in the high hat~

Sounds of trains, honking cars, Tic-Tac high heels following flashing lights. The proud seven sins, celebrating its victory on the rear of stone tablet in the hands of Moses. A city so beautiful running by a mystery, dreams shut in thick clouds of dust made of lust.

City heart smeared by iron curtain stood a mighty clock tower where time stood still, inherited by a man, a dreamer, a dream where his sins dance and sing together.

Through golden shadows a crow whispers a new soul has arrived a new hunt has begun untainted in this city of colors “your lullaby fall on deaf ears”. Furious and curious he leaves his tower wearing his high hat reciting “the ladybugs will fly again”

From his hat he pulls out gluttony of lust, wishing for him to fall in greed but

Chant of bells shakes the earth the crow shouts “diamonds to dust your stars will rust”.

Oh Sloth, envy, pride where is your wrath?

Come dawn the tower falls…

 

“For if evil cannot prevail against fate, what hope is there for good”

~Tarun Tamoli

Nirvana

Johnny boy….Eyes of fire tattoos all over, loud bike walked as if he was Lucifer incarnated, Girls would lust and guys would shy away. Love fears respect maybe everything or nothing that’s our Johnny Boy.

Where is he now in the middle of nowhere riding his bike, for miles never ending?

You see nothing but sand and dead carcasses of animals who tried to make this journey, Maybe its something that every raw instinct makes you do,

What are you doing here?

Where is this road headed to

Nirvana he said

Nirvana what are you suppose to find there

Nirvana he said as he stops for fuel.

In the middle of nowhere at the rundown  shop he enters an unsightly human waste of a GOD’s creation, no he isn’t a GOD’s creation,  Picks up a beer and something to munch on and approaches the counter,

 How much is it

 Too dam much

 Expired products anyways

Would give you for free! if you give me something of same value?

Looks around and says how about i tell you a story of one of my tattoos

Story WTF oh HELL do amuse me like i have anything to do anyway,

Pick one he asks your favourite tattoo.

He looks around ok what about this big piece of chunk that looks like spaghetti.

Oh this one is good, opens up the beer and after the first gulp he says this one i got in hell…

“Story starts”

An couple Mary and Jack were sleeping snuggled and cosy in each other arms, Knock on door its 2:00AM  who is there at this hour, Police open up, Jack opens the door and gets handcuffed right away Mary shocked crying why you taking him…Jack yells Mary call Joseph(family friend and an Lawyer).

At the police station interrogation starts.

Where were you at Month XX/XX/XX?

I was with my friend at Jenny the BAR,

Friend who?

Tony.

Detective where is Tony?

IDK i haven’t talked or seen him since, why am i here i have done nothing wrong let me go.

Here sign it (detective throws papers)

What is it?

It states you were an active alibi in the murder of Jane Foster the stripper at Jenny

What how who is she i don’t know anything about her and i haven’t killed anyone.

Sign it!!

Joseph arrives at the scene Jack don’t sign anything or say anything, I’m here and he pushes the detectives away.

Ok Jack I’m here and we are all alone now, you have to tell me everything that has happened that day in detail.

IDK man i haven’t killed anyone get me out of here

Shut up!! Jack you are not going anywhere, You are in here for murder, It’s serious now FOCUS!!! And tell me exactly what happened start to finish. Don’t miss out on anything.

Jack tries to find his composure takes in deep breath and closes his eye and starts to talk.

It was a normal day was bored at work, around lunch Tony calls no biggy he calls and we meet up often.

Who’s Tony?

Tony man don’t you remember you met him at this party.

No i don’t remember any how continue with your story.

So Jack continues… Tony called up during lunch as says he got free passes for Jenny the bar and everybody loves Jenny they have the best stripper’s in the town. So its Friday night why not i agree to it and call up my wife and say’s il be late meeting’s and Tony and me meet up at Jenny right after work, We smoke a little weed and a few beer’s  in my car parked near the park, Jenny was walking distance from the park so after a few beer’s and weed around 8:00PM we stand in the queue for the bar.

Lots of good looking girls man I said to Tony, Tony is like dude these chicks are nothing compared to what we are going to find inside. I can’t wait to get a good lap dance. So we get in finally and as soon as we get it i loose sight of Tony he was like shark who smelled blood and can’t wait to eat the poor old fish, Felt sorry for the fish that tony went after, I went to the drinking area and got myself an beer and started looking and assessing the goods in the store, I roamed around a little and saw from the corner that Tony was in a little dark room, He was with a girl getting high, I threw some paper’s(money) at some girl’s I fancied during the live show, Tony came back and said im done let’s go, Me to im stoned Mary must be waiting and worrying to, So we get out i drop him at the subway and come back home.

That’s all i know and that’s all what happened.

Joseph is that all you sure?

Yea man this is really all i know what happened.

Joseph ok tell me where does Tony lives?.

IDK.

What do you mean you don’t know where he lives?.

IDK we met at a club and we just hang out,

Ok his number?

I don’t have it he calls usually

WTF Jack give me something here?

Oh i have his photo we took a selfie while we waited in the car.

Oh thank GOD show me.

Here

What is this?

What do you mean?

It’s an photo of you only!!

Jack looks at the phone fuck where is he?

It’s an empty car Jack, Where is Tony man!!!

IDK how could this be…

Detectives enter the room and asks Joseph to leave the room and looks at Jack and says u are under arrest we have CCTV footage of Jack killing Jane foster.

What Joseph shocked and Jack out of words to say (Jaw dropped in shock)

Joseph leaves the room and jack is taken away

Story ends.

“Main story”

Cashier looking at Johnny

Johnny asks how was it?

Cashier a little surprised, what that’s it. So he is the Killer? What does that mean who was Tony and what does this have to do with your tattoo?

Johnny boy laughing don’t you get it?

No i do not….

Johnny is like I’m TONY!!

What how can you be Tony, When you weren’t even in the picture and police had CCTC Footage of Jack killing Jane…

Johnny says

I’m the hidden evil that exists in everybody and every now and then i come out to play because I’m a very naughty person and walks away leaves the store starts his bike and rides away…

The camera tracks back at the store and from distance we see the cashier just standing stunned and as the camera zooms into the store we see cashier with empty eye sockets bleeding from eyes….

 

Who is Johnny boy? What is Nirvana to him? Is he running from something or does he have a goal, is he even human or just an animal instinct.

-Tarun Tamoli

Wish of a Rose

Fade in…

Once upon a time a beautiful rose fluffy and full of beautiful petals is born in an empty grass field, He looks around wonders why is he alone in this field. An bird comes along and lands near him and he asks to the bird why is he alone here in this empty field. The bird responds, Oh don’t you know everyone in the sky knows, Anticipation fills him and he asks please do tell me i need to know.

The bird explains, an old couple used to come here every day and read books together and in the books they had roses just like you which had lost their colours, they don’t come no more i don’t know why but the last time they were here they took the roses and buried them right here and you were born. Rose excited WOW I’m born coz of perfect love, such a beautiful story, need to to be in a book as well, Can’t wait to be part of a beautiful love story…

Few days passes rose with its proud in full glory waiting for the day.

One day it is approached by an little girl, Rose says no don’t pick me i’m waiting for an romantic couple but the girl unable to understand the feelings of rose, Picks it up and bring it home and gives it to her father, Father kisses the girl on forehead and she goes away minding her own business, unable to decide what to do with the rose he hands it over to his wife. Rose is happy now it can finally be part of a love story but the wife than hands it over to her best friend as she visits her, Rose is shocked as to what’s happening but before he could understand anything the friend hands it over to her boyfriend who being a guy and no respect for love or rose throws the rose at the sidewalk .

Rose is furious, Broken with have lost his petals isn’t feeling beautiful anymore, Rain starts to pour and an homeless man picks ip up and goes near an car on an red light signal and offers to sell for food, On which an lady buys the almost broken flower. The lady puts away the rose in a book and moves on with her life, Rose doesn’t understand what went wrong he was so beautiful and his only wish was to be part of a beautiful love story and imprint his beauty, Time passes by and unable to loose it colours in the book he just sits there.

Sometime later, the book is lost and an old fellow picks it up and realizes the book stores an unprinted rose, Broke and Falt carries it with him to an graveyard and puts the rose on his wifes grave and it starts to pour rain again, As the rain poured on the rose started to loose its colours while the old man watched and the rose realized

Love will always find a way.

 

Fade out…

-Tarun Tamoli

Empty Book

Life doesn’t always go in a smooth line sometimes it’s a zigzag an oval and even a dot.

Fade in…

Just an usual day sitting on top of my terrace minding my own business writing a book or at least that’s what i like to believe, just a usual day where life just flows and nothing either makes sense or even need to…

Cold breeze sweeps in and brings a feeling of un settlement, something about today this weather this breeze this moment, is it trying to tell something maybe something is going to happen maybe something needs to happen is something coming? All this is so confusing..

Cold breeze sweeps in again and the book falls over, looks up the sky maybe a storm is coming bend down to pick up the book and the page is lost and a new page is open, hmm i don’t remember writing this who wrote this i can’t recognize the writing either, breeze again but this time the breeze is soothing, sits in the chair again and starts to read….

Letter written in the book-

If i were to tell you, would you listen to my thoughts which are as windy as today’s cold weather?

If you were to smell me would it remind you of the rain about to come hitting the grass?

If you are to touch me would it remind you of rain gently kissing the flower petal’s?

If you were to see me would the beauty of this book fade away?

You might be confused by all this and what it mean and even who I am, let me take you in this dream that I’ve lived in with you and in the end ask you why did u decide to wake up from it….

In our dream…i was a strong stallion wild full of life lived on top of the tallest mountain and would battle the sun and moon race the fiercest wind’s and you be a proud eagle flying so high as to challenge the sky itself wings so huge as to declare your the king of sky and ruled the kingdom of air itself…

You would come visit me every day and we would race to the end of mountain, you would always win since i couldn’t race past the cliff, did that make you proud? So much proud that you decided not to visit me ever again?

Did u ever care that racing you made me strong gave me my fiercely will, when u stopped visiting my legs became weak and i couldn’t run fast no more I started losing to earth the stars the moon the sun and the wind… sun didn’t shine on me anymore and I started to wither away in dust of stars…

When i had lost all hopes and lay silent in my slumber you showed up and asked me to race you again, tempting yes it was but I knew i could not win but greed pulled me up, couldn’t hardly walk yet I ran while u tear through the sky yet i ran hardly keeping up, the cliff was here and I jumped falling down I knew you can’t keep up and before I closed my eyes i knew i had finally won…

That is when the dream ended…

Was it my fault or yours? Is it too late to know the answers? If we could be in a same dream again would you race me again? Would u leave me again? Will you let me win again?…

Letter ends.

It stars to pour rain

Never stop chasing your dreams

Fade out…

Travelling light

Everybody has some baggage in their life, some have it light and some have aching back because of it. Why do we carry such baggage? Where does it come from? Why can’t we just travel light?

No worries nothing to hide nothing to give.

I think it’s our nature to approach everything with open arms and when we get bored and move away our selfishness give nothing back and we are left with un-necessary baggage.

I was born, I was raised, I was given too much, much to handle and appreciate.I am tall, I am strong, I have a heart of stone.I Travel Light,it's au revoir,I have travelled far,Mountains